tinybrave is a call to action. It’s driven by my ongoing investigation of how to live with courage and lead with compassion. tinybrave is about the small everyday acts of daring that strengthen the heart.
I’m Belinda Noakes and I’m tinybrave. Are you?
I currently live near the beach on the Gold Coast in Australia.
What I’ve Learned About Change
Ten years ago, I had what many people would consider a dream life. I earned great money working in Asia for a multinational software company, holidayed in fancy yoga retreats around the world and bought whatever I wanted, whenever I wanted it.
But secretly I was sick and miserable. I lived mostly in my head, disconnected from my body and my heart. I had strong addictive tendencies. My life felt hollow and empty. Eventually, it became intolerable.
So I began to transform from the inside out, diving deep into spiritual healing and quitting my corporate career to focus full-time on rebuilding my exhausted body. I did a lot of inner work, experiencing dozens of different modalities in a few years and becoming a certified practitioner of a couple. But some patterns just wouldn’t shift.
Around the time I recognised I’d become addicted to doing healing work, I learned this: the imprints that hold us back and keep us stuck in old patterns live in different layers of our being. And different healing tools target different layers.
I saw that some deep wounds around self-worth were untouched. They drove my dependencies and addictions. And the wounds I’d not yet found the courage to face had created the conviction that no matter how much work I did, something was still wrong with me. They powered an addition to perfection that was pushing my Soul away.
Here’s the thing: I still couldn’t trust myself, so I gave my power to the healers and practitioners I worked with and looked outside myself for miracles. I believed that “I” (my ego-mind) knew better what needed to be healed and when than my Soul did.
So my ego-mind compulsively searched for what was still wrong with me. I wanted to find it and pull it out by the roots, whether it was ready to come or not. At the same time, I avoided and denied some of the deepest layers of trauma.
I relate to my own evolution differently now. I’m learning to love my wounds rather than be at war with them. And my own Soul is my most trusted practitioner.
Learning to truly love myself is an ongoing process. Deeply held layers of shame still surface. My knowing of who and what I really am and my ability to embody that knowing continues to evolve.
Most of the time, my Soul creates the perfect circumstances to show me what’s ready to be cleared. And when I need some extra help, She’ll orchestrate and deliver the support I need… without me having to chase it or figure it out. It’s a more organic process – one that relies more on divine synchronicity than on my mind’s ability to control the unfolding of my life.
If you’re interested, you can read more of my story.